it's not what i want to be doing...

could be my slogan for my life.

the last two years i worked with mentally retarded students. it wasn't what i wanted to be doing (though i loved it all the same!)

now, i'm in czech, and my teaching jobs (and other life things) take up a lot of time. it's not exactly what i want to be doing. i enjoy it all the same, but when i sit back and analyze it, i want to be doing other things instead. never totally satisfied.

there are things about living here that are tough and that can be draining. traveling takes up so much time. people can be pretty rude; this morning as i was coming back from my walk, a lady literally turned her head to stare at me as i walked by (i'm not sure why? maybe it's the red hair...sometimes i smile at people and they glare at me in return). i can only laugh off people's annoying attributes so many times before it starts to irk me.

BUT LET IT BE KNOWN, as many annoying things as there are about being here, my love for the people is greater than the rest.

but, the reality of it all is that it's not so bad. i've been reading this blog lately, and she has a post from may 15th that i'd encourage you to read. she doesn't want to be working, but she HAS to. that is her ministry.

God, would you let me view my work as ministry for you, and let me be satisfied in you.