kicked in the butt by Jesus

well, i have been kicked in the butt once again by the Lord...it never fails for me in my humanity to stop trusting the one who provides for me.
i've been having trust issues about going to czech this summer...is this really what i should be doing? how will i raise the money? i haven't been trusting in the provision of Christ in any way. i haven't been trusting that he would raise support for this summer, and after this summer financially. it's something i'd been thinking about because i was get discouraged with having the same amount of support and no one sending any in. when i checked the other day, i had received $500 more than the previous day, and this weekend i found out that my sister and church are giving me a big chunk. i started crying. thank you Lord, for reminding me that you're in control.
oh, and another thing, my team is going to Pardubice...the church i've worked with for the last coupe years!

Moonflowers and Band of Horses

Right now I am in this strange mellow mood which won't last all weekend, I'm sure of it. but i'll try to enjoy it while i can.
there's some new things in my life.
first, check out the Band of Horses myspace. listen to their song No One's Gonna Love You. it sounds like an awful, sad song, right? but it's beautiful. i have listened to it over and over, and each time i am serenaded even more. it gets stuck in my head and i love it. the way that the song is sung is so different, and it is all just so pleasing. the best part about the song is that it's "no one's gonna love you more than i do," so much more beautiful than no one's gonna love you...and i love that the title challenges the beauty of the song.
secondly, i've been gardening. nothing new, but i remembered why i love it so much, and i will sorely miss it this summer. i love watching the seeds sprout and grow, and knowing that i am responsible (partly) for whether they continue to grow or whether they die. it may sound old-ladyish of me to say this, but it is so exciting to watch them get big and grow into something beautiful. but as my good friend jaci reminded me, it's not me - it's God.
jaci planted sunflowers and some other kind. i planted moonflowers and seashell flowers. we've been keeping them in a "greenhouse" and already we have to pot some of them because they're getting too tall. here are pictures of them from yesterday. today they've gotten taller and some more have sprouted. we only planted them 6 days ago, and look at them now!
the top one is tuesday, the bottom is wednesday. and today we've taken the top off so they don't hit it!
i love it.