in the last couple days i've been getting really concerned about my future and disheartened with my present. i had a bit of a meltdown, though after reading some of exodus i was comforted by how God continued to provide for the Israelites though they kept complaining.
and then i had my great friends comfort me, and one told me that i was being too martha about the situation. i wasn't choosing to sit at Jesus' feet as mary did and take comfort in his presence and his peace.
then tonight i read this:
The Lord will fight for you, and you have only to be silent. (Ex. 14:14)
wow...my problem is not my problem. God will fight this battle for me.
and then there's my dramatic response to the whole situation. i always get annoyed with how Moses and David are a bit dramatic when things aren't going their way, but i do the same. i get all emotional and cry out to God, thinking that i have to work things out by myself.
finally, the biggest opposition to the gospel isn't the atheist, it's the apathetic. this i've always known - it's the person who says that he believes in God but is content with his life and therefore doesn't want to change it to follow how God commands us to live life. and that really sucks.
and this is again how the Israelites were! when the pharoah chases them to the Red Sea after they depart (and many other times in the desert), they say it would've been better to stay in Egypt where at least they got food (though they were slaves) than to serve and sacrifice to their Lord in the wilderness. they didn't care about his glory, they were more concerned with their lives. they somehow chose to ignore his miraculous signs again and again and wanted to live their lives in ease and comfort rather than choose to follow their Creator.
"sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same."
God shows in Exodus how it was hard to follow him - it meant going without water and food for days. yet God promised them great things.
ugh apathy. it is my enemy.
